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Change in the smallest things...

It's funny how when you are faced with huge uncertainty, the things that really matter to you will come into picture perfect focus.

Back in April, my dog Hank had his yearly vet appointment. He's 10 now, and had prostatitis most of last year and was neutered in December, so I was looking forward to hearing that he was fine, that it was a routine visit. Except the vet heard a heart murmur. This set off a cascade of additional visits, tests, and insane worrying. After seeing the veterinary cardiologist (and $1000 later), Hank has a mild degeneration in his mitral heart valve. It's a slow progressing disease, so he should be ok, it's just something we'll keep an eye on. Big relief.

But as I was sitting and waiting for his last round of tests, my brain was doing a million permutations as to how I was going to pay for it if something seriously was wrong. He could have come out of the last visit with 3 required medications and additional ($500) scans every two weeks, which would deplete my savings eventually and then where would we be?

So I got good news for Hank, but I'm now putting some of those permutations into action. Week 1 without cable tv has gone pretty well and that is $100 that goes directly into savings. Now I just have to hope for a raise, lol.


How I spent my day....

The inevitable question on any Monday is 'So what did you do this weekend?' Fairly common, idle chit-chat to which I almost never have a good answer unless I did something super out of the ordinary (like see my sister). For me, a 'normal' weekend has two kinds of days...movie days and catch up days. On movie days, I end up at a theatre and spend two hours transfixed and transported to an alternate reality. On catch up days, there are 'to do' lists and groceries to buy. I actually love both kinds - at least it's the weekend. :)

So here is (or was) my day:

Ungodly hour I was roused by a hyper beagle who needed to go potty: 2:40am

Hours spent watching dogs sleep/watching Forensic Files & The Haunting because I can't go back to sleep: 6

Stores visited while grocery shopping: 3, but I kept my total bill under $50, yay!

Yellow jackets killed inside the house: 1...at least this one didn't sting me.

Hours spent reading every entry at Dinner: A Love Story: 4

Times I've thrown the squeaker ball for the dogs: 5635484874698237, lol.

A cool evening (finally!)

It's kind of disconcerting when you have to turn on the air conditioning in February. I haven't open the doors to the porch in months. It's been too hot, so I'm thrilled to be sitting with them open wide, the dogs milling about and watching squirrels running along the tree branches across the way. I wish we had this weather year round. I've been thinking about getting the porch enclosed, sort of like a sunroom, but I wonder if we'd get such a great cross-breeze.

I realized tonight while I was walking Hank how much stress I was carrying in my body. The beginning of the school year is always hectic and total chaos, and this one was even more so. I need to get back to stretching, walking and meditating - carrying around so much tension feels toxic. Maybe fall will help bring some relief. :)


So there's that...

Do you ever learn a lesson and keep forgetting it? Or at least learn a lesson, hope it's not right, and then have to learn it again?

That was me yesterday...and I almost told my boss to fuck off, so there's that, lol.

I started my 18th year at my job at the beginning of this month, something that usually stuns people, since almost no one under the age of 40 has been with the same employer since they were 20. But I have, and I love what I do. What I do is probably inconsequential to most people - I'm just another cog in the machine of their daily lives - but I love the minutiae of my job. I love seeing and talking to so many people a day, I love seeing their faces light up when you can make a connection with them, and I love doing things right...everything accounted for, everything in it's place.

There are a lot of things I don't love about this place (not my job, per se), this administration, but I don't want to go there right now - I cried enough last night to last me for a while. However, I will say that I've learned my lesson (again), let's hope it sticks this time?

"You shouldn't have to give pragmatic, logical reasons why you're doing something that you love." -KS

Sing it sister...


One year

It hit me a couple of hours ago that I signed the final papers on my condo a year ago today. Such a crazy day - a tire going flat, 7 calls from work in two hours while I was with the lawyers, so much rushing and worry. I remember I drove straight here (after I got the tire fixed) and sat on the floor and cried.

I don't regret a moment of it though - it was the best decision I've ever made. To finally have my own space, a home that was mine and mine alone, filled with my books and my dogs...worth every penny.

Omg, this week, this week...

If it wasn't a migraine, it was dairy contamination.

If it wasn't move-in, it was phone insanity.

If it wasn't incompetency, it was stupidity.

I haven't been this happy to see a Friday in ages. I would sing TGIF, but I'm too tired, lol.

Happy weekend!

Is it just me...

Or does watching the Olympics make everyone else want to run out and join a gym, hit the track, find an available pool or set of uneven bars? There's got to be something we can do.

Except balance beam - last time I was on one of those, I broke my collarbone. We're sworn enemies. :)

96 Minutes

Went to see '96 Minutes' today - I'd seen so little about it that I wasn't even sure what the plot would be, but they filmed part of it at my job so I decided to see it anyway. I was very pleasantly surprised, as the film was very good and OU was all over the beginning of the film! Lupton, Hearst, the quad, and the library were in so many scenes - I was internally squeeing all over the place. They even mentioned us (and our former events coordinator) in the credits. :)

Check it out and get a glimpse of our beautiful campus.



"Every stress leaves an indelible scar, and the organism pays for its survival after a stressful situation by becoming a little older." -Hans Selye

If the above quote is true, I think I've aged about 5 years in the last 8 months or so. Buying a home, being separated from people I've lived with for over 10 years, big changes at work, I could go on and on. I'm not a huge fan of change; I like routine and stability - for me it's a big deal to go out to lunch on the weekend, lol. I'm incredibly predictable and it drives me nuts when things go crazy. Currently I feel like I'm living in Crazytown, Population: 1.

What do you guys do to deal with stress?


Yule approaches

Work is insanely stressful, but the holidays are approaching!

Yule tree with the most gaps in it ever? Check, but at least it has a pretty red bow on top of it. :)

All the gifts wrapped that have come in? Check.

Watched all my favorite holiday movies/specials? Hm, I’ll have to get to work on this one. My all time favorites are Mickey’s Christmas Carol, Home for the Holidays (with Holly Hunter and Robert Downey Jr.), and A Christmas Story, which I watch pretty much all day on December 25, lol.

What are your favorite movies/tv specials/carols for this time of year?